press play

March 3, 2024

• caffeine

  One sip and I’m on. Back to reality. La locura que era la noche anoche ya está atrás.

• closing time

  I helped close that chaos down as well as add to it. I guess when you close a bar down that (the “adding to la locura” part) goes without saying.

• berl(yin)

  Here I was thinking this place is my yin, but now I'm not sure. Maybe Berlin has been yin this entire time. It rhymes with it, at least. Or, maybe, like I wrote in my yin/yang musing, the lines move and maybe they even bend and blur.

• yangsters

  It's almost as if this town has its own yin/yang effect. The nature, obviously = yin. But that only bar in town man, that's all yangster shit.

• inhale

  I want to soak up and inhale all that I can to stock it up in my soul until I’m back here again. I'm going to need to tap into and ration it when Berlin burns me out.

• dat balance

  I'm not sure l’m a city girl. I think I'm supposed to be a farmer or, at least, have farmer friends. Not sure full-time farming is for me either. Again it's all ‘bout dat balance.

• juxtaposition

  There was a live flamenco guitar and singer creating this Andalucían Ambiance. The guitarist was wearing a NYC ball cap for sound check that I didn't realize was a soundcheck until they had an outfit change and the hipster hat was gone.

• twerk & swirl

  There were no dancers at this performance, but one girl in the audience in her hoodie and jeans who looked like she knew what she was doing was twerkin’ it swirl your hands around style.

• dancing with myself

  But as much as I could feel the music and move myself to it — and I would feel like it looked good because it felt good — if I then watched a video of myself afterwards, I think I might feel slightly embarrassed for not making it look as good as it felt. Me comprendes?

• comunidad

  I've become part of the community. Maybe even an integral piece/player.

• megan in andalucia

  Funny to say this, as I had this thought that maybe the movie is about me here after all. Not an exact Emily in Paris spin off, but I'm definitely the protagonist. I mean I have locals dedicating songs to me on the reg. Singing songs I don't know the words to in Spanish and the ones my BFF does know in English, I can't understand his letras.

• lost

  I feel like I need to go back to a thread I started earlier in this entry, but now it's lost its track and I lost the train (of thought).

• complexity is unreal

  These real life characters are so complex, so full of life, so raw and interesting — it’s unreal.

• press play

  Let’s see how this plays out.