what goes around, comes around
Context: This almost two-decade old memory was triggered from my morning pages written on March 9, 2024 when pondering whether my “breadcrumb” of things stored in others’ places were going stale. Moldy.
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I was with my mom, getting my things out of my storage unit at Mizzou. I'm not sure how long I had that unit or really why. I know it's because I moved out of my on-campus house because my roommate went psycho.
I was always a good girl. Nice to all, but sometimes psychos — narcissists, rather — somehow latch on and try to take my nice away.
Anyway, this roomie packed up all my shit one day. Boxed up my kitchen items for me. “How nice!” I thought because I was planning to move out anyway. She just did all the dirty work on my behalf.
Unbeknownst to me at that time, she actually just threw my dirty dishes in cardboard boxes. Left food on them and all. So, when I went through my things at the storage unit, those kitchen items were ridden with fucking maggots. I flipped the F out. I hate those disgusting creepy crawlies. I gag.
Anyway, I threw those plates away. They were cheap, plastic, college-wear anyway. I also officially threw that friendship away. No repair from there.
However, life is weird and I do (still, to this day) have compassion for her. She didn't have the loving parents I had. Maybe (more like: probably) why she wasn’t the kindest of human kinds. But what's really F-ed up is that I come to find out some years ago she was at some big live music show in Vegas where there was a massive shooting. She could have been killed that night and suffers now from PTSD, from what I’ve heard.
She was one to always say, "What goes around, comes around." That was her bullying and kind of creepy (she would say it as if she were wishing a bad omen onto those who heard it) catchphrase whenever we’d get in tiffs.
I would never wish this horrible experience on her, even if she was the perpetrator of packing in those maggots, moving me out of her life and on with my own.
I hope her life gets better.