high-level

November 29, 2023

• it's not personal

  Don't take anything personally. That's the second agreement in the book, “The Four Agreements” that he recommended to me. I really want to be able to do this. To not feel hurt by others' actions. Their words. Feelings. It's tough. Yesterday was tough. After writing these I opened up my phone to ease into the day. To catch up on comms from abroad. I got a response back from him that sounded/felt harsh-like a backhand to the face.
  
  It's not all what he said that really matters, it's how he made me feel.

• yesterday

  Anyway, I took yesterday to feel it out.

• raw

  I was then able to feel what I needed to do, which was to share my voice. Raw.

• opinions

  Again, don't take anything personally. Everyone is entitled to their opinions. Anyway, we're on the same page now. My future's uncertain and he needs more security about the future.

• plates full

  And maybe it's all situational. I could see it as that — we all have lots on our plates these days. It's that hectic time of year.

• rest

  I wish I could just take the month off completely. I feel I need to. Maybe that’s something I look at doing…..I'm doing a lot. Like I always do. Managing a mountain of projects, personal life admin, which I still have a lot to get sorted.

• high-level

  I think I'd rather just be a high-level creative marketing consultant. I am done with doing the nitty gritty.